I’m very sad today.
My best friend has been feeling lost and I haven’t been there for him like I should have. I’ve neglected his feelings and desires and I am so ashamed of myself.
Last night ended in a culmination of his pain, and I wasn’t there to help him. He lapsed on his commitment to sobriety.
And I wasn’t there. I haven’t been there. I have been enveloped in my own pain. Dragging out my own feelings of despondency for everyone to see and to try to manage around, themselves.
I wasn’t there for him. And I am ashamed.
Where do I go from here? Where do we go?
He is so lost, I don’t know what to do for him. He has lost his own purpose in the tangled mess we have become – each of us together
Today, I hope to be a better person for him. To see through his eyes what has become of our lives. What has become of his life in this new era.
We have lost ourselves during this move to Wisconsin. We have lost each other, and we have lost our hope within each other. I see that now.
Help me to be a better partner for him, whatever higher power is out there for us, please help guide us back on the road to “us”. Like we had been before all of these changes that separated us.
How do you cope with change? How do you pick up fragments of yourselves, and put them back together again? For your Self as well as for your togetherness?
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